Monday, August 6, 2012

Being a pretty ugly girl in a pretty ugly world

If there's anything I learned about being pretty ... it's to forget what you see as being "pretty", and focus on what makes you FEEL pretty.

RUN: broken_record

I think I was an UGLY child. I was. I'll face it. I could have easily been found on that awkwardfamilyphotos website. I was tall, skinny (I mean SKINNY.. bordering on starvin marvin skinny), huge purple glasses.. I mean yah, I was a nerd (smart) but boy did I play the physical part WELL.

Eventually, I started experimenting with clothes and hair and make up. And I made plenty of mistakes in the process (who doesn't??). Eventually.. somewhere during my marriage.. I settled for the blonde hair thing... because everybody said I looked pretty (side note: What I am about to say is not me saying "blonde isn't pretty" so don't get all butthurt if you're a blonde) I didn't FEEL pretty though. Can one be pretty and not feel pretty? I think so. I decided to go back to my roots, literally. I went back to red hair. Which I like. And it helped.. but it wasn't enough.

Long story short, I went from being geeky looking redhead in HS, to a purple haired, tattooed, bombshell. Ok.. so I'm a little flat chested to be a bombshell. But my point is I FEEL pretty. THIS is what makes me pretty. Being colorful, being different, being decorated.... this is what feels pretty for me. No, it's not for everyone.. but neither is being blonde.. or wearing make up... or whatever it is you might do to make  yourself FEEL pretty.

Stop trying to figure out what it is that will please everyone else. Do what makes YOU happy. Wear what makes YOU happy. If you want to walk around wearing a tiara and a glittery feather boa? WHAT are you waiting for??? Permission?? PFFT!! Just do it. Do it once, do it a thousand times. Do it because you might just feel fucking fabulous.

Feeling pretty might bring on some snickers... or stares.. or insults. But that's their problem, not yours. Because chances are if that is the case? You have more pretty in your pinky toe, than someone judging you does in their entire body. Those people come and go. You'll be there with yourself for life. It's worth it to feel  pretty... for yourself <3 "You're worth it"